Best Foes

By Sara V., age 16, New Jersey

My heart always seemed to flutter when the eyes of someone whose name I will not mention and mine met. No, he was not a boyfriend or a crush. He was the best friend anyone could ask for. I know I sound as if I am two years old, but that is what I felt. I loved him in a way that was strange. It was what we had, what I held closest to my heart, what to this day I still struggle to describe.

Sadly, however, he felt differently. He loved me more than words can explain, and I am sorry to say that he continues to have feelings I cannot and will never return. What's more, I was blind to the fact that he felt the way he did. Unfortunately, my blindness created a gap that has drawn us apart forever.

I felt the way he did, but not towards him. I felt these emotions for another friend, and that friend felt the same towards me. I kept these feelings hidden from my best friend for a reason unknown to anyone, including myself.

My best friend noticed in me that something wasn't the same. I had changed in his eyes. I guess he noticed I felt differently. He said nothing, but I knew he knew. He was who he was. He could see my thoughts, and I his. Over this he argued with me, and I argued back.

He was a brother to me. Now we barely speak because I could not return the passion he had for me. A notion came to me that we wouldn't last, that we would never be the same. I thought what we had would end, and it did. Our lives have taken us in two entirely separate directions.

I will never understand why he is where he is now. Likewise, he will never comprehend the decisions I have made for my life.

Since all this happened my life has been lived merely to please myself and a select few friends - the real ones. Sometimes I wonder if his crush was really worth the separation, but then I think of the words of a role model:

"You never really know someone, what lies behind the skin, their secrets or their lies."

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February & March Magazine Issues

March 15, 2012

The February and March issues of Sweet Designs Magazine are now online, featuring a combined 53 new articles and features!!

- Cover: Stephanie Lynn reflects on 5 years
- Cover: India (of Darn-licious knitwear)
- Life in the dumps (moving in with my bf)
- The difference between men and women
- Angels among us (parts 1 and 2)
- Arts graduates & the dark night of the soul
- Triple threat (how I survived my teen yrs)
- Dating isn't easy (my true story)
- How to turn not-so-great gifts ... (fashion)
- Ten reasons to love being single
- Taking the big leap (college)
- Valentine's Day (not what you'd expect!)
- The last of the cold (hopefully) (fashion)
- A month full of love
- Ten tips for successful airline travel
- Reasons I love writing for SDM
- Who needs love?
- They're not all the same
- The life I'm glad I don't have (fiction)
- Professional dress/ finding Fendi (fashion)
- An airport anniversary: a true story
- Inappropriate Facebook photos
- The perks of a big city (college)
- A night(mare) to forget (part 2)
- The Anita Blake series (book review)
- Saving June by Hannah Harrington (book)
- Under the Mesquite by GG McCall (book)
- The Lullaby by Sarah Dessen (book)
- If I Stay by Gayle Foreman (book review)
- My sweetheart (original poetry)
- Isn't it funny (original poetry)
- The stranger (original poetry)
- A winter wonderland (original poetry)
- One night valentine
- The thick envelopes (college acceptance)
- Southern love
- Healthy hair and vitamins
- It's a date (dating idea alternatives)
- The 30 hour famine
- School's out forever!
- Marching right back into spring? (fashion)
- Dear John
- When TV shows depict your life
- 3 Fun ways to rock spring's hottest trends
- Neglected teeth
- Starting something new
- Guy movies
- To hesitate or dive in?
- Deadly, by Julie Chibbaro (book review)
- Beastly, by Alex Flinn (book review)
- I don't care (poetry)
- Together, alone (poetry)

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