Still November
By April, age 24, New Jersey
i remember the gleam in your eye, the way you shine when you would smile at me, while holding my heart with your hands, never realizing how fragile i really am, hiding behind walls and smiles with tears, all the while knowing you wouldn't be here, wouldn't be here for long
but in the end, it was never really your fault, i held you close and pushed you away, lifted you up and tore you down, i never said i was easy to love, but i did love you
the gleam in your eye is still where it has always been, but it's not for me anymore, there's another who stole your heart in her hands, and i am here, right where i have always been, smiling with tears, all the while knowing you won't be here, won't be here for long
the days come and go but it's still november to me, the gleam in your eye has never left my mind, your voice brings a warmth in a way i haven't known before, i stay busy and pass the time, but always knowing as i step outside, it's still november to me
i held you close and pushed you away, i lifted you up and tore you down, i never said i was easy to love, but i did love you, words went unspoken and days turned to months which turned into a lifetime ago, but it's still november to me, i never was easy to love, but i still love you, it's still november to me.
