Do You Ever ...?

By Nicole, age 15
Guest Contributor

Do you ever get the feeling
of excitement yet so sad that it burns your heart?
The feeling that won't go away,
it eats away at your heart, your brain,
but you can't let it go.
You need it like a drug, like a bad addiction
and it just won't go away?
Well, I have.
It haunts me in the night.
The feeling of needing, wanting.
Love is a harsh thing.
It tears your heart apart, yet you keep needing it.
Why do we let it do this to us?
If it hurts so much, why do we do it?
We can't help it, it comes and goes,
and we have no control.

This love I have for Paxton, it's unreal,
almost surreal.
Life without him would be miserable.
But with him, well, it's amazing.
It's breathtaking and beautiful.
Like nothing in this world can touch me
when I'm with him.
He makes me a better person when I'm with him.
But everything ends, right?
Even passion for another.
My life began with an end.
It ended with a slap.
It began with the Blast.
I don't know where I went wrong.
It must have been the word.
It was just that one simple word that really got to me.
I'd been hearing that word a lot.
Ever since the accident the word followed me around.
In hushed whispers behind my back,
from my therapist who had nothing better to do than say that word.

It wasn't supposed to happen.
I still think it was my fault.
If it hadn't been for me and my dance
it never would have happened.
She wouldn't have been speeding.
She wouldn't have been hit.
My life would be completely different.
I never would have met Paxton.

But it did happen.

She did get hit.

I did meet Paxton.

And I did meet Blast.

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February & March Magazine Issues

March 15, 2012

The February and March issues of Sweet Designs Magazine are now online, featuring a combined 53 new articles and features!!

- Cover: Stephanie Lynn reflects on 5 years
- Cover: India (of Darn-licious knitwear)
- Life in the dumps (moving in with my bf)
- The difference between men and women
- Angels among us (parts 1 and 2)
- Arts graduates & the dark night of the soul
- Triple threat (how I survived my teen yrs)
- Dating isn't easy (my true story)
- How to turn not-so-great gifts ... (fashion)
- Ten reasons to love being single
- Taking the big leap (college)
- Valentine's Day (not what you'd expect!)
- The last of the cold (hopefully) (fashion)
- A month full of love
- Ten tips for successful airline travel
- Reasons I love writing for SDM
- Who needs love?
- They're not all the same
- The life I'm glad I don't have (fiction)
- Professional dress/ finding Fendi (fashion)
- An airport anniversary: a true story
- Inappropriate Facebook photos
- The perks of a big city (college)
- A night(mare) to forget (part 2)
- The Anita Blake series (book review)
- Saving June by Hannah Harrington (book)
- Under the Mesquite by GG McCall (book)
- The Lullaby by Sarah Dessen (book)
- If I Stay by Gayle Foreman (book review)
- My sweetheart (original poetry)
- Isn't it funny (original poetry)
- The stranger (original poetry)
- A winter wonderland (original poetry)
- One night valentine
- The thick envelopes (college acceptance)
- Southern love
- Healthy hair and vitamins
- It's a date (dating idea alternatives)
- The 30 hour famine
- School's out forever!
- Marching right back into spring? (fashion)
- Dear John
- When TV shows depict your life
- 3 Fun ways to rock spring's hottest trends
- Neglected teeth
- Starting something new
- Guy movies
- To hesitate or dive in?
- Deadly, by Julie Chibbaro (book review)
- Beastly, by Alex Flinn (book review)
- I don't care (poetry)
- Together, alone (poetry)

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