Dreams of Lilli after Twilight

By Anne, age 18, Florida

i ran into your room last night
but of course you weren't there
nothing looked familiar because i've never been there before
but the tears on my lips were sparkling
every breath i take was stolen from you
and your smile was darkened with rouge
maybe if i had been there,
pulled you to safety myself
then maybe, just maybe
it would be different
i danced just for you yesterday
but your eyes could not open
and would not see me
spinning in circles is my favorite because it reminds me of you
because walking in straight lines never seemed to be your thing
i try not to blink because you are hidden behind my eyelids
i don't want to hide from you but i'm afraid ...
afraid that i'll wake up and realize my nightmare is true
my dream, your smile, is missing
i whispered your name to the flowers last week
now they have a part of you too
why should i keep you locked up in my notebooks?
you always deserved the world more than i did ...
did i ever tell you that you dimmed everything around you?
you outshone me ten times over on a bad day but i never minded or cared
i would kiss every freckle and give you the sun
just to make everything okay
i wished that i were as strong as you always were last month,
wished i had been there,
wished you were back
i wished i had taken your place
since the world hardly survives without you
at least for me ...

did i ever remember to mention
that i love you?
i can't remember anything anymore ...
i'm sorry, i love you

My poem is about my friend Lilli, who passed away in an automobile accident this summer. We met at Duke Young Writer's Camp, and I miss her. She always loved writing poetry, and she always encouraged me to write what my heart felt.

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February & March Magazine Issues

March 15, 2012

The February and March issues of Sweet Designs Magazine are now online, featuring a combined 53 new articles and features!!

- Cover: Stephanie Lynn reflects on 5 years
- Cover: India (of Darn-licious knitwear)
- Life in the dumps (moving in with my bf)
- The difference between men and women
- Angels among us (parts 1 and 2)
- Arts graduates & the dark night of the soul
- Triple threat (how I survived my teen yrs)
- Dating isn't easy (my true story)
- How to turn not-so-great gifts ... (fashion)
- Ten reasons to love being single
- Taking the big leap (college)
- Valentine's Day (not what you'd expect!)
- The last of the cold (hopefully) (fashion)
- A month full of love
- Ten tips for successful airline travel
- Reasons I love writing for SDM
- Who needs love?
- They're not all the same
- The life I'm glad I don't have (fiction)
- Professional dress/ finding Fendi (fashion)
- An airport anniversary: a true story
- Inappropriate Facebook photos
- The perks of a big city (college)
- A night(mare) to forget (part 2)
- The Anita Blake series (book review)
- Saving June by Hannah Harrington (book)
- Under the Mesquite by GG McCall (book)
- The Lullaby by Sarah Dessen (book)
- If I Stay by Gayle Foreman (book review)
- My sweetheart (original poetry)
- Isn't it funny (original poetry)
- The stranger (original poetry)
- A winter wonderland (original poetry)
- One night valentine
- The thick envelopes (college acceptance)
- Southern love
- Healthy hair and vitamins
- It's a date (dating idea alternatives)
- The 30 hour famine
- School's out forever!
- Marching right back into spring? (fashion)
- Dear John
- When TV shows depict your life
- 3 Fun ways to rock spring's hottest trends
- Neglected teeth
- Starting something new
- Guy movies
- To hesitate or dive in?
- Deadly, by Julie Chibbaro (book review)
- Beastly, by Alex Flinn (book review)
- I don't care (poetry)
- Together, alone (poetry)

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