Letting Go

By Mona, age 17, Philippines

It's our semester break, and I'm back in my hometown. Remember my article about my ex-best friend (SDM, May '08)? Well, I haven't seen him for quite some time. It's been almost six months since I last saw him, and I have to say I kind of miss him. Actually, I miss him terribly. He was a really big part of my life and I can't just forget him as if he never existed.

I've heard news over the months that he has been seeing someone. He text messaged me a couple times over the past few months telling me about this girl he hangs out with all the time, but she wasn't exactly his type. But time flew, and now he tells me that he's falling in love with her.

Why am I so affected? Maybe because my feelings for him have not passed. Maybe I still love him. But it's been months, and I've fallen in love with another (see my October article). The only problem with the guy I'm falling in love with now is that he doesn't even know that I exist.

Going back to my ex-best friend, I really want to forget him and move on. But every time I tell myself that, he does something so unexpected, like text messaging me out of the blue. With that, I get back into this roller coaster, and I really want to get out of the roller coaster. But every time I try to get out, the seat belts automatically lock me in again. It's so weird. He doesn't know how much it hurts me every time he talks about this girl he's falling in love with.

Maybe I should really just let go. Maybe I should just forget about him. I have to stop hurting myself over him. He only thinks of me as a "friend". Nothing more than that. Maybe I should just treat him as a friend too. That way we would all be okay.

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March 15, 2012

The February and March issues of Sweet Designs Magazine are now online, featuring a combined 53 new articles and features!!

- Cover: Stephanie Lynn reflects on 5 years
- Cover: India (of Darn-licious knitwear)
- Life in the dumps (moving in with my bf)
- The difference between men and women
- Angels among us (parts 1 and 2)
- Arts graduates & the dark night of the soul
- Triple threat (how I survived my teen yrs)
- Dating isn't easy (my true story)
- How to turn not-so-great gifts ... (fashion)
- Ten reasons to love being single
- Taking the big leap (college)
- Valentine's Day (not what you'd expect!)
- The last of the cold (hopefully) (fashion)
- A month full of love
- Ten tips for successful airline travel
- Reasons I love writing for SDM
- Who needs love?
- They're not all the same
- The life I'm glad I don't have (fiction)
- Professional dress/ finding Fendi (fashion)
- An airport anniversary: a true story
- Inappropriate Facebook photos
- The perks of a big city (college)
- A night(mare) to forget (part 2)
- The Anita Blake series (book review)
- Saving June by Hannah Harrington (book)
- Under the Mesquite by GG McCall (book)
- The Lullaby by Sarah Dessen (book)
- If I Stay by Gayle Foreman (book review)
- My sweetheart (original poetry)
- Isn't it funny (original poetry)
- The stranger (original poetry)
- A winter wonderland (original poetry)
- One night valentine
- The thick envelopes (college acceptance)
- Southern love
- Healthy hair and vitamins
- It's a date (dating idea alternatives)
- The 30 hour famine
- School's out forever!
- Marching right back into spring? (fashion)
- Dear John
- When TV shows depict your life
- 3 Fun ways to rock spring's hottest trends
- Neglected teeth
- Starting something new
- Guy movies
- To hesitate or dive in?
- Deadly, by Julie Chibbaro (book review)
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- I don't care (poetry)
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