Together ... I Think Not

By Kimberly, age 18, California

When two thousand and nine started I figured it would be a fresh start for me, and I would be able to find a guy who wasn't a jerk like all the other guys I had met in the past year. Most of the guys I had gotten to know over the course of 2008 were not good guys and ended up hurting me really badly, so when the new year started I figured I would finally meet a new guy who wouldn't hurt me.

In some ways it actually did come true, and in other ways it did not. The guy I started talking to earlier this year was somebody I actually had known for a couple of months from my old job. I'd always thought Aaron was cute from the day I first met him, but I didn't think of it as anything as I got to know him. He was just one of my guy friends I was really cool with.

So time went on, and I started college, and I really didn't talk to him much once I left the job where Aaron and I were working together. At the end of 2008 I started talking to his best friend Jon whom I had known before I met Aaron, and I told him that I wanted to talk to Aaron again and get to know him better. That's when his best friend Jon gave me his number, and from that day on Aaron and I started talking to one another.

I never expected to end up talking to him in that way, but it made me so glad to get to know him and feel happy for once in a long time. We texted each other every single day, flirting with each other and having a good time. So after a week of talking we wanted to see each other, and since I could not have gone out that day he went to Jon's house, who happens to live right next door to me. Once Aaron told me he was over there I left for Jon's house, and I got to see him, and it was one of the happiest moments in my life. He hugged me really tight and close and it felt very nice. We went into Jon's room and talked and enjoyed each other's company. He walked me out as I had to get back home, and then a picture perfect moment happened. As he kissed me, I was standing up on my tippy toes, because he is taller than me, and it was literally the best kiss I have had thus far in my life. Being in his arms was the moment I had been waiting for, and it was perfect.

For the next couple of months we kept talking and saw each other when we could since he is still in high school (12th grade) and I am in college. It was hard to see each other as much as we wanted to. I thought that sooner or later I would become his girlfriend because he did tell me, "Kimberly, I like you."

Once he told me that I was hoping in my heart that he would ask me to be his girlfriend ... but it never came. Aaron and I have been talking since January, but since then nothing has changed, and he has become very jerk-like in the past month or so. He has been telling my friends different things than what he is telling me, and he makes me feel like I am being crazy or making up all the things he ever said to me or did. Last week I found out something he said to one of my good friends about me, and I truly could not believe it.

I was so angry, yet so hurt at the same time, because I truly thought that he cared about me and valued my feelings, but obviously not. As of right now, I am not speaking to him because it is too hard to want something so bad, knowing that you won't get it. Aaron made me think we were going to be together ... but nope.

Now I have to move on from Aaron and realize that he is not the guy who is meant for me, but I will always have something in my heart for him because he was there for me when I needed him, and I had the greatest four months being with him and being happy.

Sometimes you have to think of what you deserve instead of what you want.

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February & March Magazine Issues

March 15, 2012

The February and March issues of Sweet Designs Magazine are now online, featuring a combined 53 new articles and features!!

- Cover: Stephanie Lynn reflects on 5 years
- Cover: India (of Darn-licious knitwear)
- Life in the dumps (moving in with my bf)
- The difference between men and women
- Angels among us (parts 1 and 2)
- Arts graduates & the dark night of the soul
- Triple threat (how I survived my teen yrs)
- Dating isn't easy (my true story)
- How to turn not-so-great gifts ... (fashion)
- Ten reasons to love being single
- Taking the big leap (college)
- Valentine's Day (not what you'd expect!)
- The last of the cold (hopefully) (fashion)
- A month full of love
- Ten tips for successful airline travel
- Reasons I love writing for SDM
- Who needs love?
- They're not all the same
- The life I'm glad I don't have (fiction)
- Professional dress/ finding Fendi (fashion)
- An airport anniversary: a true story
- Inappropriate Facebook photos
- The perks of a big city (college)
- A night(mare) to forget (part 2)
- The Anita Blake series (book review)
- Saving June by Hannah Harrington (book)
- Under the Mesquite by GG McCall (book)
- The Lullaby by Sarah Dessen (book)
- If I Stay by Gayle Foreman (book review)
- My sweetheart (original poetry)
- Isn't it funny (original poetry)
- The stranger (original poetry)
- A winter wonderland (original poetry)
- One night valentine
- The thick envelopes (college acceptance)
- Southern love
- Healthy hair and vitamins
- It's a date (dating idea alternatives)
- The 30 hour famine
- School's out forever!
- Marching right back into spring? (fashion)
- Dear John
- When TV shows depict your life
- 3 Fun ways to rock spring's hottest trends
- Neglected teeth
- Starting something new
- Guy movies
- To hesitate or dive in?
- Deadly, by Julie Chibbaro (book review)
- Beastly, by Alex Flinn (book review)
- I don't care (poetry)
- Together, alone (poetry)

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