The Boy with the Giant Chocolate Bar

By Chelsie, age 14, South Wales, United Kingdom

Recently I had to say goodbye to a friend, one who was there for me when I cried, who helped me when I fell. He was a friend who knew everything about me.

My friend knew him first, and introduced me to him online. We instantly clicked; we were laughing and joking all the time. As we got to know each other, we started to go on webcam, and one day I was really upset, so he asked, "Where do you live?" I told him, and he came something like 43 miles by train and found where I lived and comforted me. I'd only seen stuff like this happen in the movies. I was startled. He bought me flowers and a massive bar of chocolate, and he was so cute. He was two years older than me, cute, kind, and loving, but he lived far away.

While he was in my house, we messed around, laughed, and told each other more about ourselves. Our friendship grew and grew.

When he went home, he finally came online and we talked. He said he could come and see me again in about three weeks, so in the meantime we'd talk on the phone, and we passed the time texting and instant messaging. Even in school I'd be texting him in lessons, and when we had lunch he'd ring me for 45 minutes.

The three weeks passed, and he came. He looked smart, and again had a massive bunch of flowers and a chocolate bar. This time I hugged him, and said, "Aww, that's so sweet." I thanked him, and he asked if there was anywhere we could go. I suggested we go out to the fields. He was fine by it, so we went, and sat down, and we talked for a couple of hours, and then he turned to me and said, "I love you. I really do, and I can't hide it anymore."

I was stunned. I mean, you hear of people finding love online, but you never think it will happen to you, with a 16 year old boy who lives 40 odd miles away. But when he said that I instantly fell under a spell. I had butterflies and I couldn't help but stare deep into his eyes. Everything around us was gone. We kissed.

I still swear, to this day, I felt love. Powerful, overpowering actually, it was a strong but sensitive feeling. Even though I contradict myself by saying "at fourteen there's no such thing as love", secretly I guess there is.

We carried on talking, and seeing each other as friends, and on MSN we'd flirt. He had a girlfriend, but that didn't stop us from playing these games. He'd secretly see me, and we'd flirt and talk. She didn't find out for months. She didn't find out until just recently. I was writing to him on MSN and she was on his MSN. I asked when he was going to see me next, and she wrote back, furious. It kicked off an argument, and that night the boy and I decided to say Goodbye and forget each other.

It's so hard. He told me it would get easier, but it gets harder and harder. I've ended up wishing bad things on myself while I sleep, that I would bleed out or be strangled. Now, we email every couple of days, and we talk on the phone, but it's not like it used to be, and it never will be.

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February & March Magazine Issues

March 15, 2012

The February and March issues of Sweet Designs Magazine are now online, featuring a combined 53 new articles and features!!

- Cover: Stephanie Lynn reflects on 5 years
- Cover: India (of Darn-licious knitwear)
- Life in the dumps (moving in with my bf)
- The difference between men and women
- Angels among us (parts 1 and 2)
- Arts graduates & the dark night of the soul
- Triple threat (how I survived my teen yrs)
- Dating isn't easy (my true story)
- How to turn not-so-great gifts ... (fashion)
- Ten reasons to love being single
- Taking the big leap (college)
- Valentine's Day (not what you'd expect!)
- The last of the cold (hopefully) (fashion)
- A month full of love
- Ten tips for successful airline travel
- Reasons I love writing for SDM
- Who needs love?
- They're not all the same
- The life I'm glad I don't have (fiction)
- Professional dress/ finding Fendi (fashion)
- An airport anniversary: a true story
- Inappropriate Facebook photos
- The perks of a big city (college)
- A night(mare) to forget (part 2)
- The Anita Blake series (book review)
- Saving June by Hannah Harrington (book)
- Under the Mesquite by GG McCall (book)
- The Lullaby by Sarah Dessen (book)
- If I Stay by Gayle Foreman (book review)
- My sweetheart (original poetry)
- Isn't it funny (original poetry)
- The stranger (original poetry)
- A winter wonderland (original poetry)
- One night valentine
- The thick envelopes (college acceptance)
- Southern love
- Healthy hair and vitamins
- It's a date (dating idea alternatives)
- The 30 hour famine
- School's out forever!
- Marching right back into spring? (fashion)
- Dear John
- When TV shows depict your life
- 3 Fun ways to rock spring's hottest trends
- Neglected teeth
- Starting something new
- Guy movies
- To hesitate or dive in?
- Deadly, by Julie Chibbaro (book review)
- Beastly, by Alex Flinn (book review)
- I don't care (poetry)
- Together, alone (poetry)

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