By Gia, age 17, Florida

Fighting the urge,
The angst eats away at me every time I see your name in my phonebook.
Wanting to touch you again,
Not allowed to because you aren't that anymore.
Desperately I try to find your face in a crowd even though my heart knows you aren't there.

I smoke a cigarette to get the edge off,
By the end of the night there won't be any left.
You'll be tucked into your bed with dreams dancing around,
While I, well, I try to make some lies about why I smell like men and smoke.

Come back, silly boy, I won't screw up this time.

I want it to be you at the end of day,
Not some boy with a car and a nice room who wants to pay attention to me.
I'm not a sl**; I am just craving the attention I want from you.
The nicotine is wearing off, but it doesn't matter,
All I really want is to hear your voice.

Come back, silly boy, I won't screw up this time.

We'll get drunk on poetry I write and the stories you tell,
I'll play you music and you'll drift off to sleep.
Never about you honey,
I always put me first.
Sneak out while your chest rises and falls.

Cigarette burns don't hurt as much
As the pain of not telling someone
That you desperately want to change
Their outlook on you.

Sleep and dream about better tomorrows,
When I'll be gone and you'll be here,
Making the world smile.

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February & March Magazine Issues

March 15, 2012

The February and March issues of Sweet Designs Magazine are now online, featuring a combined 53 new articles and features!!

- Cover: Stephanie Lynn reflects on 5 years
- Cover: India (of Darn-licious knitwear)
- Life in the dumps (moving in with my bf)
- The difference between men and women
- Angels among us (parts 1 and 2)
- Arts graduates & the dark night of the soul
- Triple threat (how I survived my teen yrs)
- Dating isn't easy (my true story)
- How to turn not-so-great gifts ... (fashion)
- Ten reasons to love being single
- Taking the big leap (college)
- Valentine's Day (not what you'd expect!)
- The last of the cold (hopefully) (fashion)
- A month full of love
- Ten tips for successful airline travel
- Reasons I love writing for SDM
- Who needs love?
- They're not all the same
- The life I'm glad I don't have (fiction)
- Professional dress/ finding Fendi (fashion)
- An airport anniversary: a true story
- Inappropriate Facebook photos
- The perks of a big city (college)
- A night(mare) to forget (part 2)
- The Anita Blake series (book review)
- Saving June by Hannah Harrington (book)
- Under the Mesquite by GG McCall (book)
- The Lullaby by Sarah Dessen (book)
- If I Stay by Gayle Foreman (book review)
- My sweetheart (original poetry)
- Isn't it funny (original poetry)
- The stranger (original poetry)
- A winter wonderland (original poetry)
- One night valentine
- The thick envelopes (college acceptance)
- Southern love
- Healthy hair and vitamins
- It's a date (dating idea alternatives)
- The 30 hour famine
- School's out forever!
- Marching right back into spring? (fashion)
- Dear John
- When TV shows depict your life
- 3 Fun ways to rock spring's hottest trends
- Neglected teeth
- Starting something new
- Guy movies
- To hesitate or dive in?
- Deadly, by Julie Chibbaro (book review)
- Beastly, by Alex Flinn (book review)
- I don't care (poetry)
- Together, alone (poetry)

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