I Have Nothing in My Life
By Clarissa, age 21, Texas
Okay, well, I pretty much have nothing in my life ... I don't have my parents. I move around constantly with different friends, and I have to move again in a few months, and I have no job. I'm getting f***ed over by my "good friends" a lot lately. The girl I like f***ed me over, and I just feel so stressed because nothing is going right. I get nothing and I hate how I see all these kids at my school with all this money take things for granted. They all think their lives are so hard when really they have no idea what it's like to be a teen trying to make sure I'm not on the street or something. I just need some advice or encouragement.
I was truly touched reading your story. I can't lie and tell you that I understand how you feel or what you are going through because I don't, but I can sympathize. I had a lot of trouble when I was growing up as well, so I know it is not easy. A simple day that most take for granted is more than likely stressful and a struggle for you. I commend you for doing the right thing and keeping on the right path. It's easy to be in the streets and get fast money, but the consequences ultimately aren't worth it, and I am glad you have realized that on your own. When your friends don't act right and your girlfriend is full of drama, just know that there is a plan for everything.
I can't tell you why life is more complicated for you, but I can say that you have a powerful story. There are many other teens going through the same thing as you with no one to turn to. Through my own experience sometimes you have to go through the dark in order to reach the light. If you believe in any type of higher power I would encourage you to lift your spirits and keep pushing. Don't let life overcome you; become a great man despite the obstacles that are in your way, and believe me, you will be the better for it.
I thought of one of my favorite quotes while I was reading your email, and I hope it helps you as it has helped me. Kenji Miyazawa sums it up exactly: "We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey." I know you have to be experiencing a lot of pain, frustration, disappointment, and hopelessness. But you must believe that there is always hope; when one door closes another one opens up. So keep your head high and walk through it - don't look back. Also, don't be afraid to ask for help; see what programs your local community has for teens, and give yourself options.
Unfortunately you aren't the first and won't be the last to go through issues such as the ones you have mentioned. The bright spot in all of this is that there are many people out there who would love to help you - all you have to do is reach out.